sape xmakan cili, xkan rasa pedasnye...

owh! minggu yg sumpah memenatkan giler bab! ya ALLAH, tggl sehari, tp peritnye... hati dah lame kat umah. sejak last wiken lg kot. sbb my lovely mom dtg Banting itu hari. sbb konon2 byk sgt test, i x pegi. konon2 alasan wiken ni da nak balik umah 4 our mid sem break. apakandaya...

mcm biasalah! bekal ibu n abah xpenah miss. terima kasih ibu n abah! love byk3! kasih x terhingga! =D

hand made food from my mama! terima kasih ibu!

mcm tu la dr sekecik tapak tgn sampai la i da sebesar padang bola ni haaaa...ibu sentiasa akan bwkkan bekal. even abang n kakak i yg dah kawen, da ade anak berderet pon setiap kali nak balik ke rumah mereka, or ble2 ibu nak gi ke rumah mereka, mesti ade je yg ibu bwkkan! time kat asrama MRSM dulu, slalu la setiap wiken akan ade habuan tok roomate n floormate. heeee. skrang, setiap kali nak balikje mesti ibu siapkan sekali tok housemate yg lain. dok la hai pk kawan2 suke ape. tp anak nye cume i sorg je dlm umah ni. hurm. mcm tu la. kasih ibu n abah xterhingga. sampai kawan2 i sume dpt. hurm *jeles* :p

xsabar nak tggu esok! habis je segala urusan esok, aku vrrrooooooooooommm! tros nak ke TBS beli tiket bas! hahahaha! mcm main explorace plak! tp teramat sgt xsabar! urggghhhh!

so, beberapa hari ni, i dok la memasak ntah pape tok habiskan segala khazanah kat dalam peti ais tu haaaa.. last sekali tggl udang. xde bawang, xde cili, ikan bilis tggl bpe eko je. nak masak ape? last2 gi la hai menagih bawang kat jiran sebelah cik ana. habiskan kentang, plak, bapak banyak giler cekodok kentang yg jadi? rezeki jiran sebelah. tp kesian la diorg sbb rupe bentuk die dah sgt distorted sbb i was so very penat td. hahahaha. atie juara makan cekodok kentang! she is the first person to eat, samapai i dah nak habis goreng 1 tupperware adunan yg sgt besar tu pon she's still eating it. lol! 

udang plak, aku habiskan dgn jadi nasi goreng yg pelik rasanye sbb xde cili padi. tp diorg sume ckp ok je. mungkin sbb aku je yg makan cili dgn excessivenye. hahahaha

alifah sgt trauma dgn masakan i sbb die akan sentiasa rasa pedas. even in this fried rice. walaupon xde sebiji cili pon yg dimasukkan. hahaha! maaf alifah! :p

tetibe terduduk n terbayang kehidupan di rumah bersama suami n mentua yg masak meme xdop pakai kari. (bakal mother in law org kelantan). so i tros. i'm gonna miss my mom even more. =(

but that's the risk yg kte kene ambik once we decided to get married. you are not just married to your beloved hubby but also to his family. i know the risk, and i am learning to accept the truth. insyaALLAH. 

pray for my best. insyaALLAH, 'everything's gonna be oke' (abi punye favorite line! :p)

If something makes you more upset than happy, then they aren't worth your time.

i'm stressed out last week. ramai (lebih dr sorg according to my aunty, means byk :p) ramai gler yg terserempak dgn i simply says

"eh! kina da nikah ke? ckp btol2! da nikah eh?" 
i was like...
"eh! blom laaa...next year insyaALLAH..kenape?" 
then she simply reply to me "owh...nape chubby sgt? nnt jgn lupe jemput tau!" 


 then, i tros...ok, diam n straightly jalan ke hadapan....

gain weight. arggghhhhh! the one thing yg sgt lah i xsuke! yes, meniaki tgga berat badan tu mudah, xpenat pon, boleh dibuat dgn suke hatinye... hahahaha... tp tang nak turun tu....haih...T.T

so, currently, sedang berusaha. sejauh mana keberkesanannye. hahahaha. tp, nak sihat punye pasal..selain drp tu sbb towards that very day, mestilah lebih3 lg nak jaga. org slalu ckp

nnt diet giler3 b4 kawen, lepas kawen tros zaaaaappppp! besar!


for certain case it might be true. but i know my body better lah kan? so, i am having problem with my metabolic rate. it can be categorized low. hahaha. xpe la. ALLAH knows the best. HE will give me what i need, not what i want. kan? so, alhamdulillah. i am so very healthy if to be compared to some people. so, what i need to do right now is to take a good care of it. insyaALLAH. to be skinny is not my aim. my main objective is to be healthy! bring back my BMI into normal range. daaaahhhh! kantoi dah overweight! hahaha. no lah! but really2 almost overweight!

so, what did i do? i try my best not to eat any medicaation coz i love my kidney. heeee~

first thing first, i start to control my calorie intake. so, sometimes its quite tiring to look at the food that you really love to eat but you are unable to eat it coz it covers too much calories of the day. T.T so, xtau nak buat ape sbb slalu sgt lari dr landasan nih! hahahaha! xpe2, keep on trying! =)

secondly, workout! i love to this! since my housemate used to say that i am having low limb obesity. hahahaha. not funny oke. its the truth! 2 dimension in one body! hahaha. so, my workout particularly to reduce the obesity of my lower limb, and of course to boost up my metabolic rate! insyaALLAH. based on my reading, it might help. hahaha. usaha! itu yg penting! but i enjoy it. really!=)

so, who wanna join me? tomorrow? why not today? right now? right this second? keep on delaying good thing again? haih... go and change!

cut the fat! lets be healthy! =)

i miss the moment when we were together

alhamdulillah...another day in this earth...

doing my silly job again. blog walking. weee~

i am attracted to read my kaunselor punye blog. bese bace tp xtgk la tepi2 tu kan. hari ni tergerak nak tgk n, perasan lah beberapa nama yg i kenal di bhg other blog. surprisingly, ramai yg ade blog dalam kalangan kawan2 lama! wow! (ko igt ko da advance sgt? hahaha)

impressed dgn achievement mereka. ramai yg ke luar negara. alhamdulillah. me? i 100% xmenyalah kan sesiapa atas sbb keadaan i skrang. sbb ALLAH dah janji, apa yg kte usahakan tu, itu lah yg kte akan dapat. so, sekarang i am right here coz this is where i belong. alhamdulillah.

being gifted kalau xgunakan wisely pon nak buat ape kan? ramai je kawan2 yg dulu mcm biasa2 skrang dah jauh ke hadapan. alhamdulillah. bangga dgn mereka. for me, i am a typical melayu kot. hahahaha. bak kata Tun Dr. Mahathir dulu, "melayu mudah lupa." and yes, it suits me a lot. hahahaha.

ade blog best friend lama skrang dah kat Jepun, ketua homeroom yg dulu skrang dah kat UK, kawan sebelah kelas yg sekarang da sambung PhD, senior atas aku yg sgt aktif, classmate lame yg skrang dah nak jd lecturer pon! tahniah! n ade gak yg da nak abes n jd lawyer. mcm2 lagi lah! tahniah ye u ollllllzzzzzzz...:p

as for me? let me keep it to myself. hahahaha

if and only if the time can be reverse, i really2 would like to go back to my schooldays. i waste most of my time when i was there. but sedar sket kinah! "bende paling jauh daripada kite tu adalah masa lalu"


sbb tu skrang, aku masih mencuba dan mencuba. gagal selalu, berjaya sekali sekala. tp berdasarkan ade scientist lame tu ckp, aku punye ayat pon jadi begini " i xrase i gagal byk kali, i cume discover ade byk cara n sbb yg boleh menyebabkan i kegagalan" hahaha. ayat nak sedap kan? tp kadang2, ble time2 down ni la kata2 semangat tu perlu. mengadu padaNYA, pada masa yg sama, cari inisitif tok recover. insyaALLAH...

still sampai sekarang, senyuman tu masih boleh terukir di bibir ni sbb i believe in HIS promises. insyaALLAH. =)

*present day...=)*

nothing last forever

yes, i am a stranger

but!

F.Y.I

i never brag for being engaged to somebody

i did judge people based on how they behave

some of them did hurt me

sometimes a lot

sometimes just 'like i care?'

sometimes the way u act hurt me a lot

i am impressed with u

u are able to keep your ego low down to earth towards somebody like that

but keep it as high as the sky when you are with me, or with any other of us

*yes, i kecik ati*

but!

strength need to be build 

just remember, one day

when you stop listening i will surely stop caring

tq

stronger

at first, when i listen to this song, not really interested to the lyrics. tp lelame, pas kuar dgn abi sume, he ask me to listen to this song. he dedicate this song to his dear boss. hahahaha! so now i understand! i would love to dedicate this song to my housemate amiesya! hahahaha

You know the bed feels warmerSleeping here aloneYou know I dream in colorAnd do the things I wantYou think you got the best of meThink you've had the last laughBet you think that everything good is goneThink you left me broken downThink that I'd come running backBaby you don't know me, cause you're dead wrongWhat doesn't kill you makes you strongerStand a little tallerDoesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm aloneWhat doesn't kill you makes a fighterFootsteps even lighterDoesn't mean I'm over cause you're goneWhat doesn't kill you makes you stronger, strongerJust me, myself and IWhat doesn't kill you makes you strongerStand a little tallerDoesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm aloneYou heard that I was starting over with someone newThey told you I was moving on over youYou didn't think that I'd come backI'd come back swingingYou try to break meBut you see...What doesn't kill you makes you strongerStand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm aloneWhat doesn't kill you makes a fighterFootsteps even lighterDoesn't mean I'm over cause you're goneWhat doesn't kill you makes you stronger, strongerJust me, myself and IWhat doesn't kill you makes you strongerStand a little tallerDoesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm aloneThanks to you I got a new thing startedThanks to you I'm not the broken-heartedThanks to you I'm finally thinking 'about meYou know in the end the day you left was just my beginningIn the end...What doesn't kill you makes you strongerStand a little tallerDoesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm aloneWhat doesn't kill you makes a fighterFootsteps even lighterDoesn't mean I'm over cause you're goneWhat doesn't kill you makes you stronger, strongerJust me, myself and IWhat doesn't kill you makes you strongerStand a little tallerDoesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm aloneWhat doesn't kill you makes you stronger, strongerJust me, myself and IWhat doesn't kill you makes you strongerStand a little tallerDoesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

faham x maksudnye? so, keep on smiling ye. bkn sbb ditinggalkan kekasih je boleh dgr. hahahaha! ape2 ujian pon. ape2 pon yg org lain buat kat kte. sume tu ujian hidup. so i doesn't kill u, but it does make u stronger. dgn lagu pon jgn bodo2 je tau! kaitkan dgn kehidupan. hiburan tu boleh, tp berpada2. dr segi lagu ni plak, amek pengajaran ye. 

ape2 pon ujian yg dtg, akan buat kte lebih kuat dr semalam. dpt kawan2 yg macam hampeh ke, bf yg ntah pape ke,  lecturer mcm tttuuuuuuuuuttttt2 ke, or subject yg ya rabbi ke...sabar...tu sume ujian ALLAH...jalani dgn tabah, later on, dpt ujian yg lebih mudah, of course kte akan dapat lalui dgn lebih mudah kan? =) 

so, i add this song to one of my favorite. heeee~ =D 

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger!


"so, kinah, ble ko nak abeskan bace buku? ujian jgk tu..."


errrr....okbai. =/